Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Self Confessions

I had one of those rides yesterday. The type that embarrasses me as a rider. I was nitpicky and unfair.

Things started out well, working on flexing and bending, warming him up. It seemed that I just could not get my mind to shut up about everything going on in life and let me just ride. I was tense and unrelaxed, than demanded my horse to be relaxed. Obviously it was not working.

Milo really was a good boy and tried very hard for me. It was the type of ride where I kept thinking I need to just find a good place to end and get off, I can not helping anyone by riding like this. But I continued to ride. Even stopped and took a long breath. Tried to focus myself. Than continued to ride.

I for some reason decided that today was the day to work on everything that wasnt 100% and demand perfection. Why? I dont know, because Im a controlling human I guess.

I wasnt thrashing on his mouth or anything by any means, just expecting too much and not giving anything back. Milo really was trying hard for me.

I hope I can make it up to him.

But the great things about horses are that they live in the moment. I got off Milo yesterday and just stroked his face for a while. He shut his eyes and licked his lips. They are amazingly forgiving. I hope I can do better by Milo today. I have to.

3 comments:

Kate said...

Everyone has days like that - forgive yourself - he already has!

paint_horse_milo said...

Thanks Kate. Horses are so great, and so is Milo :)

Mare said...

Yeah, I know what you mean about those type of days...All you can seem to care about is perfection, and when the horse isn't living up to your "expectaions," you get frustrated, even if they're really doing the best they can. And then you get frustrated with yourself, for not being "good enough." Been there, done that!!! It's okay, happens to the best of us. Move on, Smile, and Breathe. Tomorrow is always a new day:)